I am 39 years old and I started drinking alcohol at the age of eleven and taking drugs at the age of twelve. By the age of fifteen this was a daily occurrence. I then started using heroin and cocaine at the age of sixteen. This rapidly became a big problem for me. I was then placed on a methadone script. I started working in hotels which gave me more money to fund my addictions. At the age of 26, my dad was shot and murdered. The trial was a year later in Exeter Crown Court. I moved to the area and got a job there, so that I could attend the trial. I was attacked in my bed and spent six months in a coma. I was left with a brain injury and PTSD. Life has been a downward spiral ever since; I have rarely worked and have bounced around from homeless hostel to homeless hostel. I entered The Haven nine months ago after doing six weeks in another rehab for the third time. I knew that I couldn’t stay off drugs on my own strength - I needed a new way of thinking; I needed a new heart. My mum and gran took me to church as a child so I always knew there was a God but I only ever tried to talk to Him when I was in trouble. I have a seven year old son and I desperately want a good quality life for him and myself – he has had a tough start in life already. He found his mother dead in bed last year and this has affected him massively. I need to take responsibility for my parental duties and be the best dad I can be for him. For the past 14 years my life had been consumed with hatred and unforgiveness towards the man who killed my dad but slowly God helped me overcome this – this was a turning point in my life and also in my faith in God. The bible verse that helped me with this was Matthew 6 v 14-15: ‘For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your father will not forgive your sins.’ How could I be forgiven for my sins if I couldn’t forgive him? I now speak to God every day; I can call Him a father and friend; He is always there to listen and to help me with my problems. I did find this difficult because I never trusted anyone. I can now honestly say that my future looks good. I never thought that I could tell people that I don’t take drugs, I don’t smoke, I don’t swear and I beat a 22 years’ methadone addiction. Without God I couldn’t say these things. I forgive. I’ve been forgiven and I’m at peace now – praise God.